Drinking chocolate milk may not be as simple as you think. That beautiful milk you drink with the pleasure you get from sharing or living the moment may not seem as interesting to you as I describe. I know that sometimes I get too poetic when I write, but I guess that’s the point of this magazine. We constantly jump from topic to topic. That’s why I don’t want to get stuck on one topic in what I write. When evaluating a subject, I want to talk about every aspect of it, but when I talk about every aspect, I am not talking about its benefits or different aspects. I mean it in every possible sense. Even though the topics I mentioned below do not match the title, you will see that they do in the future. Think of it as a different voice in each head. After all, not everyone has to appeal to a common goal or a common thought. I think this structure I’m in forces me to look from a different window. Because you are constantly around people from different backgrounds, you unintentionally gain this mentality.

Going back to chocolate milk, aside from what I wanted to talk about, chocolate milk can be a beneficial drink. Chocolate milk actually has calcium, protein and vitamin D. On the other hand, as you know, it is a chocolate drink. But when you think of chocolate, I want you to think more abstractly than having a physical meaning in your mind. Sometimes, let’s try to think about the physical objects we know and have seen before in our lives with a little abstract thought. In short, let’s look at them from a different window.

I don’t think I’ve ever had a bad moment while drinking chocolate milk. Of course, maybe you had a bad moment. The time I spend with a glass of chocolate milk makes me happy. Because I experience a different emotional change every time I drink. Even though I get lost in a sea of different emotions and have to think over and over again about how I should feel when writing or taking photos, I cannot stay fixed on a particular thought. I guess I don’t want to stay either. Even though sometimes I need to focus on only one thing, my environment, people, and mood affect my focus time and focus. Even though I feel comfortable writing, sometimes I have difficulty and I just write what I say. Just like I’m doing right now, I just say what I feel without thinking too much or focusing on it.

Sometimes when I do this in real life (whatever real life means) I feel selfish. Because I put my own wishes first and convey my words accordingly, without thinking about whether it will hurt the feelings of the other person. So I don’t pass it through any filters. Sometimes, though, I pass it through filters. Because even though I want to say whatever I want, I think my level of tolerance increases depending on the importance of the person in front of me. By the way, I’m not saying I can’t stand anyone. Of course, there is no such thing as whether to put up with it or not. I have to decide this situation myself. For example, when I talk to my close friends… I don’t think much when I talk to them. Because no matter what I say, I don’t think they will misunderstand me. I guess they can understand what I actually want to say.

Sometimes, out of the blue, that is, while walking on the road, in short, just as a person lives a normal life, I too get stuck in my normal time. I’m always trying to look at different places. I don’t want to freeze in one place. I feel like I’m afraid I’ll miss something. No one is going far from me, but I’m afraid. I guess I usually go away. No matter which person I talk to, I usually hear the same sentence. “Aren’t you going to make time for me?” Of course, I want to make time for you. You are my friend, so I enjoy the time I spend with you and I want to spend more time with you. But sometimes I get torn apart trying to make time for everyone. Or sometimes I have to get up and leave because I want to see others while I’m with them. Because I don’t have any other time. Actually, being so planned and programmed didn’t even have a place in my life. When I started to seriously take responsibility for things, that’s when I had to schedule some things for some reason. Actually, I don’t have much planned, I just make a few plans in my head and try to act accordingly. It’s just that every once in a while I miss something or forget some notes that I should have written in my brain.

After reading all this, do you think you are a planned person? I know I’m going way off topic. I don’t even realize how far we’ve come from chocolate milk. I think the lack of awareness is the important point here. Because the things we do unconsciously may be a reflection of our subconscious. Even though our subconscious is full of secrets, I cannot help but admit that it is a little boring. So why do you have to stay so low? Isn’t what we call consciousness actually who we really are? Why do we call it subconscious even when we talk about it? I think things get more attention when they seem complicated. I think it’s because it evokes a sense of mystery in people.

I think we don’t wonder about a person’s features until we like their appearance. As social and somewhat selfish people, it is not enough for us to be at the top of the food chain, we can also shape the world as we wish. Therefore, wanting to leave the playing field given to us with a good score is an expected feeling from people. Since I’m a human myself, I think I can understand this.

I seriously think that eyes are a mirror of the soul. Because even communication starts with the eyes. Watching you look at me or making eye contact with you and speaking with words is not the beginning of communication. In fact, communication begins directly when I look at you or when you look at me. But we don’t need to make eye contact with each other. Because when you look at a person, you can get information about them. You can understand what kind of person they are simply from their clothing style, body language or the style of their hair. I guess that’s the beautiful thing about communication. There is no need for either of us to listen and understand each other. I can initiate communication whenever I want. This is exactly what I like so much. I think being able to do what we want, whenever we want, without needing a different person explains me in a way.

I think I have learned many things on my own so far. I continued my life by thinking about many of the things we learned from our families or felt obliged to learn. Actually, after a while, I wanted to continue this way. Because I’ve already learned.

You should know that you are an observer of your thoughts, not the voıce speaking them. You receive countless throughout your day, now think of the ones that really grab your attention. It’s often the ones that are backed by emotions. Be calm, be patient, and become aware of the thoughts you think.

With these many memories I have accumulated with chocolate milk, I think I can fully explain what drinking chocolate milk is like. I think, aside from its sweetness and beautiful aroma, drinking chocolate milk makes me remember the memories I had.

İsmail Eren Demirtekin