I think the distinction between the things I like and the things I don’t like keeps my life in good order. At least, I can say that this distinction makes my life easier. When I explain it in such simple sentences, I feel like I’m straying from the topic. Sometimes there can be a difference between what I write or what I want to write. Anyway, back to the title. By the way, I just wrote the title. Exactly as in the example here, what they call “freewill” must really be real. It was at that exact moment that I decided and wanted to write.

For some reason, I love reading description books. When I read them, I feel like I understand them more easily. “Books are a door to a different world.” Said someone I knew from before. I think description books describe the place, characters, events and everything else in detail in our minds. I think I feel more eager and curious. Although I don’t mean to say that every person can experience this situation only in description books. Everyone shapes and characterizes the object they create in their mind according to their wishes. I think I like the description because it makes me feel a little more involved in the story.

Sometimes we find our own thoughts, ideas and personal characteristics in the books we read, as if we were wandering in a different life. I think that’s why people internalize books. Something like this happened to me too. After reading the book “Trainspotting”, for some reason I started to see myself as a more polite and sharp-edged person. While reading the book, it was as if the things I had said and thought before had already been written. I think every person gets lost in the same sea of thoughts and ideas. I think we can at least say that every person has a period like this. It is as if the time given to everyone is the same, but everyone lives in a different dimension. 

Think of your brother. Even though we have the same background, the same house, the same family and sometimes even the same room, we can be very different from each other. When you think about it, doesn’t it seem a little ridiculous? So how could it be? When I put myself in this example, I seriously realize that it is true. Even though I was very patient in almost every aspect of my life, I guess I couldn’t be patient with my brother. We are very different, and it continues that way, but we have time to fix some things after all. At least I wasn’t late. As I said, how did we become so different from other people when we shouldn’t have such differences?

I sometimes feel these feelings when I look out of the car window. I watch people on the street as if I were reading the characters in the book from a third perspective. When I look out the car window, I realize that each person has a different story. I sometimes wonder what it would be like if I knew them. When I look at other cars, I imagine myself in that car for some reason…

What a difference it could make in my life. Actually, if I think about it, I think many things would be different. When I look at people from a third perspective, I feel like I’m reading a book and I’m the author. Actually, I’m writing the life book of a specific person. It’s nice to at least dream, give people some of my time and pay attention. I think every person deserves this.

İsmail Eren Demirtekin